urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:br0therbob br0therbob br0therbob 2004-01-30T00:10:13Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:br0therbob:2050 2004-01-30T00:10:13Z 2004-01-30T00:10:13Z The Used - Blue and Yellow <font size="+1"><font size="+1"><b>somebody tell me why everything has to suck so fuckin much.... </b></font></font> i'm so sick of life and all its drama and sadness. i hate it more than anything, i wish i was just fuckin happy and stress free. i dont know how everyone can be so happy all the time, i'm just sick of life... sick of it... im sorry to everyone that actually cares. maybe some people see how much i'm hurting all the time. even when i seem like i'm actually happy when i'm just goofing off, i'm really not. everything is just horrible. i was once happy and i enjoyed it for a while so i guess this is what i get for being happy every once in a while. i'm fine with that now... i need to find an escape, somebody help me... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:br0therbob:1895 2004-01-29T02:10:28Z 2004-01-29T02:10:28Z Brand New - Mix Tape i went out today and took the volvo cuz my parents drove my car to virginia. well today pretty much sucked. went to prestons, went to marks, went back to prestons, dropped mark back off at his house... i thought going out would have made happy, but it didn't everything still sucks ass and i hate it... someone should just hire a drifter to kill me. i dont fuckin care................................................ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:br0therbob:1740 2004-01-28T13:56:20Z 2004-01-28T13:56:20Z Brand New - Mix Tape awaking to another day of snow covered ground... but hey, no school... thats a plus. i wonder if i'll be able to go anywhere today, i need to get out the house baddd. i dont really care anymore, im getting accustomed to waking up then spending the rest of the day in my bed alone. how i wonder is this what life will be like in the future for me... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:br0therbob:1493 2004-01-27T23:10:20Z 2004-01-27T23:10:20Z Brand New - The Quiet Things THat No One Ever Knows days and days go by while i just think about the past as i lay in my bed contemplating the words 'what if'. things could have been very different... 5 hours later......... i just awoke from my horrid slumber to a surpisingly relaxing phone call from haley, gotta call her back at 9 so i cant resume my slumber. i was plannin on sleeping until tomorrow morning and waking relaxed and refreshed but its alright. sorry bout this post, it doesnt make any sense at all. im not leaving my bed until tomorrow morning but i prolly will cuz im thirsty. i'm just writing down random thoughts. oh well it doesnt matter urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:br0therbob:1248 2004-01-27T14:56:43Z 2004-01-27T14:56:43Z THERES NO GOD DAMN BREAD OR MILK IN THIS FUCKIN HOUSE, HOW THE FUCK AM I SUSPOSED TO COOK PANCAKES????? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:br0therbob:809 2004-01-27T14:51:11Z 2004-01-27T14:51:11Z Nickelback - Someday everything just has to fuckin suck ass. i woke up bout 30 minutes ago and called up lothian automotive to see if i could go get an oil chnage but guess fuckin what, i cant get my car out cuz of all the fuckin gay ass ice so i canceled the oil change and my plans for today are pretty much fucked... oh yeah, thank you mcdonalds for wakin me up three times this morning, first time at 4am, second at 4:30, third at 5.... FUCK YOU FRANK TAYLORRRRRRRRRRR urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:br0therbob:715 2004-01-27T04:08:45Z 2004-01-27T04:08:45Z POD - Find My Way i know you can't see this, but this is for you haley...<br /><br />we just ran out of time<br />i wonder if you're thinking bout the times together<br />when we wished that everything would last forever<br />fare through sorrow<br />tides turn to my disutility<br />i won't ever forget you baby... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:br0therbob:447 2004-01-27T03:26:11Z 2004-01-27T03:26:11Z Lostprophets - Last Train Home i hate doing these things, but i figured that i need to keep track of the days that go by now, seems pretty pathetic... but its alright i guess<br /><br />lets start with last week... the worst week of my entire life<br />january 21st was susposed to be a good day, me and haley's 1 month anniversary... but that day we both found out she was moving to texas.. lots of other stuff happened that day that i do not wish to comment on but thats the jist of it. january 22nd... another horrible day, i was massively depressed during school because i thought haley was gone already but she wasn't and it was a 2 hour early dismissal which is usually 'grand', but anyways i spent the day depressed and upset because thats the day all the drama went down and haley left for texas... i miss her so much right now, all of you have no clue what its like for me right now... who knows maybe you do similarly but not exactly...... january 23rd... another horrible day, i spent most of the day upset and went to guidance because i didnt wanna be in class like that. but after school i went to marks house and skated tryin to get my mind off of everything but then i had to go home and help my dad, but i got $10 and went to the nhsival, which sucked ass except for seans band which fuckin rocked the house, they brightened my spirits i felt happy for a short moment. 24,25,26... all three days i felt like shit, had to work then went home and just lay down in my bed and do nothing because im so depressed because of everything thats going on. now i'm just waiting for haley to call, im really hoping she does it would make me feel a lil better i guess.<br /><br />on a brighter note, i dont have school tomorrow so im hoping that every1 will wanna go see the butterfly effect tomorrow, it looks tight. i've been wanting to see it for a while now.. i was planning on seeing it with haley but that would be impossible... everything is fucked right now... completely fucked...